Nostalgia............

It's very hard to keep your thoughts mature all the time....not especially when you are feeling low about something....

I can't help but feel bad for leaving infy, however great the reason for the same be..Joining IIM-B is like my life's dream come true... But i had my life's greatest time in Infy Bangalore, with the 3 most important people in my life....

love u guys.......

Rejection............

is such a bitter feeling.......takes a lot of will power to not let it affect one's state of mind........but then again, i should have been open to the possibility of unfavorable outcome, before subjecting myself to some one else's judgment.....

Naturally, i feel sad for not being selected....but happy too for being free, without any responsibilities.....

What ever gave me the idea to even apply, has now learnt the lesson, hopefully.........

Time to put it behind and move on, with other challenges that stare me on the face........

Reality or just an illusion ?

You think you know a person fairly well and start sharing a part of your life with them, be it time, thoughts or personal feelings. You call it friendship and tend to enjoy it. But, when the truth comes out that the other person dint actually reciprocate the relationship in the same way and instead had so much kept hidden from you, that feeling is unexplainable. That beautiful bond which you once shared seems to break and only a sense of awkwardness remains. It makes you wonder about all possible reasons for such an imbalance in your relationship. Is it maintaining privacy or having secrecy?

Now that brings me to the difference between privacy and secrecy. As i see it, privacy is something which is maintained by people to keep their life's stories hidden from those who are not very close to them. So may be the friendship i thought was there, was just an illusion. And secrecy is something, people keep from everybody, even the closest of friends. Now that brings me to ponder the reasons for such secrecy. Is it because they think they are at fault and so can't dare to share it with anyone. Or is it due to some harsh reality?

I am clueless!!!

in the world of emoticons i m colon capital p.........

ya it was first come first serve.....

damn his vulcan hearing.....

for me it was a bonding moment.....

in the world of emoticons i was colon capital d.......oh now he is colon capital o.....

as you have an entire lifetime of poor decisions ahead of you, may i interrupt this one.......

i would really appreciate it if you would leave me with penny for a session of self criticism n repentance..........

and ur furry little boy toy.....

my objections were based on considerations other than difficulty...wat ever, jesus still loves u...

they knew very well why they hated u.....

what ever third world demon is running around inside you.....

evolution isn't an opinion, it's a fact.....now that's ur opinion.....

Wondering what this is all about ?? Then you have gotta check out the first episode of the brand new season (3) of The Big Bang Theory (BBT). It's back, and boy, with a real bang!!! I saw it thrice already, back to back, and can't get enough of it still.....Sheldon is simply superb.....others are as good as before as well....waiting for more episodes eagerly.......

You can watch the episode online here

http://www.megavideo.com/?v=80PYBOO7

PS: I hope i haven't just violated anyone's IPR............

Confessions of a late realisation .......

First of all a very early good morning to everyone (or atleast those reading this blog at this hour)!!!

Now-a-days, i get a missed call a few seconds before every received call (atleast 80% of them), both being from the same person. After almost 2 weeks it dawned upon my otherwise active mind that the reason for this, is my new caller tune set 2 weeks back. This is one of those few peppy numbers of recent times which i really really liked. So i set it as my first ever caller tune, leaping out of the boundary of my "phone bill minimizing techniques". Well there are quite some such leaps, a bit before this tune setting, like GPRS activation in my beautiful Samsung S7330 which i am proudly flaunting from almost 8 months.Ok let me not get de-tracked now. So what was i saying, yeah my caller tune.

On the way to office now, in the cab which zooms past the "no-traffic-at-4AM" roads of bangalore, the only saving grace which keeps me very much awake and alive are the songs i stored on the 1GB card of my cell. So when the player started playing my "caller tune" song, i was naturally humming it at -70dB sound(considering the 2 other sleeping souls in the cab). Another realization struck at this point, which is the vague similarities between my past 1 hour life and this song.

Now your part of contribution to my blog apart from reading it patiently is to guess which song it is.

PS: No calling and finding out please.....

PPS: The reason for a missed call before almost every received call is that people calling me were shocked/surprised/confused because of 1)a caller tune for my number, in the first place and 2)this song, which starts off scarily (in the caller tune only)!!!

PPPS: My confessions turned into my bragging about my cell and its features.Nothing intentional, if you must believe me ;), along with the many "my-s" in this blog !!!


PPPPS: It was my alarm ringing instead of the shehnai, at roughly 30-45 min deviation :):)

PPPPPS: I know i have written way too many "P"s in the form of PS's. Hope it does not Peeeeeeeeeesss any body

A never ending wait........

Will it be a wait for ever or will i make it to a B-school? Time alone knows the answer for this....

After a year long preparation, ending up with a mere 93%ile in CAT was really pathetic on my part. There are a quite a few friends who console me saying it's fine for a first attempt. But how can i explain to them all the weekends of fun i missed because of this so-called preparation. 

Now that there are no more calls left and an year(9 months actually) for the next CAT, i am spending, with no guilt, all the weekends with anything but touch books or think about CAT.

Hopefully, next time it will be a lot better performance than this time. I can only pray, prepare and practice too, of course .